Reflecting at 1:11am

So I was watching this trailer. It is 2:11 long, and in that time frame, so many thoughts ran through my mind...I thought I'd do some sharing....

1. Michael Caine = old man = remembering Grandpa
Lately, my brother and I have been talking about Grandpa and how much we miss him. Every thought of him takes me back to the day he passed away. I should visit him soon. Love you and miss you Grandpa.

2. Headphones.
I love my headphones. It is an important part of me because it zones out the noise of the world and zones in my love for music. I can zone out the crazy guy sitting next to me who is talking to himself zone in on some NKOTB, Chicago or Kanye.

3. Apprentice.
I believe in role models and mentors and the positive effect they can have on people who look up to them. I believe because I have role models. I have mentors. Now look at me. It is such an accomplishment to know that you've affected someone in a positive way and hope they will do the same thing to someone else. I hope I am a role model or mentor to some other soul out there. I hope I've changed their lives somehow....

4. Old people = story time
I've always admired the elderly and their ability to tell a good story about the life they've lived and experienced. You can learn so much from them. And the best part of it is catching that twinkle in their eye while telling it. I cant wait to tell my story one day....

5. "Make contact with the living"
I'm very unsociable at times. I could stay safely in my corner at a party where I dont know anyone and not even try to mingle. I've been given so many opportunities to meet new people, make new friends, gain a new lifestyle. But I'm open to those ideas. Not when I have to go out and chase for more friends just so I can "meet" knew people that I probably dont have anything in common with....maybe with the occaisonal guy to whom I can get into a deep conversation about about "Watchmen." But it will go beyond....one night conversation as opposed to a one night stand. Ha. Ha. Ha.

Don't

c/o SoulPancake

Write a five-item list of things on your ‘to-don’t’ list.

140 characters speaks louder than 150.

So over last couple of weeks I've become a Twitter whore. I'm on it 24/7 checking the latest rants from peeps like Ashton Kutcher, Demi Moore and Christopher Walken. Just today, I found Seth Rogen, the love of my life.

Paul Feig, director of The Office and other hilarious sitcoms, came up with this thing called Tweetales - Mini stories in 140 characters or less. I've been raping it since yesterday. I replied once to Mr. Feig and saved my story.....like everybody else. But the coolest thing about it is, he read it!!!!!! Hehehe.....

Here are some of my Tweetales. I dont know how long I will be keeping up with this, but you never know - 140 characters may turn into a feature film! (Some of them are similar because I thought they disappeared from Twitter but I found them).

my body fell heavy. i did not resurface. i'm at the bottom of the lake. before I closed my eyes for eternity, Nemo said "You are going home"

i gave my life to the one i love the most. i spend each day watching him kiss goodnight to his wife and kids. i will love him for eternity,

@paulfeig i am at the bottom of the lake. i listened to the sound of silence. i closed my eyes and nemo whispered "welcome home". (this one was saved by Paul Feig)

I ran down the flooded stairs. i crashed into him. we fell to the ground. he asked "is it me you're looking for?" i'm never late for work.

we danced all night. we were lovers for one night. she gave me her phone number. i never called her. 3 years later, i married her brother. (this one's my fave...so ironic)

the thought had crossed my mind. i looked away and there he was, beautiful as ever. he sat across from me. i never saw him on the bus again.

i sat on the rooftop to observe the dark skies. i saluted the neighbour across the street, making love to my boyfriend in my bedroom.

i filed for divorce from the man of my dreams.i sent him a package with all the documents. he never knew my name or of my existance.

The Future

c/o SoulPancake

They say that if you write something down, you have a seven-times-better chance of actually making it happen. If that's the case, who needs a palm reader when you have a Sharpie?

Step 1. Grab your favoritest color Sharpie.
Step 2. Write something on your palm that you REALLY want to happen.
Step 3. Don't sniff the Sharpie.

My 10 Most Awesomely Spiritualest Moments at the Movies

c/o SoulPancake
10 movies that offered me experiences that changed the way I look at the universe.

1. Memories of Matsuko
2. Go
3. The Classic
4. Napoleon Dynamite
5. Amelie
6. Trainspotting
7. Moulin Rouge
8. Forrest Gump
9. The Notebook
10. Knocked Up

I am Pluto.

c/o SoulPancake
Write a five item list of who you would take with you to create a new society on Pluto

1. Patrick Wilson (for pro-creation...I cant wait!!)
2. A Starbucks barista (to fulfill my caffeine addiction)
3. Daft Punk (musical amusement)
4. Jesus (soul food)
5. Seth Rogan (to share jokes)

What the F?

I spent these many years investing my time.
Only to be lead in another direction.
Lead to believe that it could happen.
Lead to believe that there was hope.
Lead to beleive a possibility. Against all odds.
But then moments at a time, pieces of the puzzle come together.
Come together to reveal a truth that you hope wouldnt or couldnt be true.
I find pieces inside someone's jacket.
Inside a closet. Inside a drawer. Inside a cellphone.
Inside a conversation. Inside an emotion.
I find all the pieces.
But the last piece is hiding in two different places.
Strategically hiding, never to be found.
But you know what? Those pieces can remain in their hiding place.
I dont need to find them.

Because I already know what the picture on puzzle is telling me.

I wish.

I wish.
I wish I didnt waste $83. I made a stupid mistake.
I wish.
I wish he would stop.
I wish.
I wish my cellphone could pay for itself.
I wish.
I wish it was done already.
I wish.
I wish the moon could talk back.
I wish.
I wish I made better decisions in last month.
I wish.
I wish they would just admit it already.
I wish.
I wish I knew people like Ongina.
I wish.
I wish it was already over.
I wish.
I wish California was one metro stop away.
I wish.
I wish I could stand in a the middle of a field of tall grass, look up to the sun above and yell out "WHY, GOD!!? WHYYYYYY?" and fall to the ground crying, bang my fist, curl up in a fetus position and fall asleep....to the sound of silence.
I wish.
I wish it were so.

Across the universe

If only my laptop was not 17" and uber thin and light, I'd have this thing attached to my other hip (my ipod is on the other side).

Been surfin' and turfin' these sites lately:

www.twitter.com
Is following famous people considered stalking?

www.perezhilton.com
It fills the cracks in my brain with Hollywood nonsense.

Kanye West's Blog
Where you at Yeeezy? I discover many things that I cant have or see in person. I envy the what the world has yet for me to see.

www.soulpancake.com
Twitter>Rainn Wilson>Soulpancake
I discover pieces of the world that are waiting for me to discover.

www.tam-sam.com
Display of items I cannot have.

A side order of owl please

Found this while browsing through empire.com.
Life becomes a little brighter....yum like cupcakes.

I would wear his trousers any day!

Simple pleasures.
No matter how down I get, I always find the little perks in life, even though I cant actually have it. It's the actually jolt of electricity down my back when I watch or hear something that makes my heart skip a beat.

That aura of negativity that's been keeping me company since the beginning of the new month has not left my side.....but misery can sometimes come hand in hand when you need that special spark to make the day just a little brighter.

And below, I share my joie de simplicité:

1. Song - "Electric Feel" (Justice remix) - MGMT
2. Song - "My Cool" - Adam Tensta
3. Patrick Wilson.....or Nite Owl.....2 for one, both are yum
4. The Comedian.....because he's cool and he reminds me of a buffed up Robert D. Jr.
5. Will Arnett....he's hilarious and he looks like P.W.
6. The Office (no explanation necessary)
7. Thinking about Nite Owl when he jumps down and lands with knees bent and cape in full. More yum.
8. RuPaul's Drag Race.....gotta root for Ongina, reppin the Phils!
9. Watching P.W. dance in a Gap commercial
10. Can you tell how much I have it in for P.W.?

*drool*

Watch me!

I. Cannot. WAIT!!!!!

I'm catching up on my pleasure reading so that I'm ready to indulge full blown out action and actually understand what I'm watching.

This is probably the second book I've actually read before seeing it on the silver screen. It's fun to watch the trailer and actually recognize the some of the scenes.

Excited like a little school girl with a new boyfriend.